>>39361065i wouldnt really say that im normal anon. i mean, without getting into it too much, my "traumatising event" if you want to put it that way was a lifetime of being beaten, raped, denied agency, having all of my boundaries violated near-constantly, being subjected to religious cultism and expected to be part of that cycle of abuse, being neglected whenever i wasnt useful etc etc. i've had far from an easy life and frankly the reason i dont talk about it is because ive learned that it often makes other people feel like theyre "undeserving" of their own problems just because mine seem so often to dwarf theirs. which is silly, because there are people worse than me (ive met some through recovery in fact), and different people have different abilities to recover from what they go through.
but in any case i wouldnt call being hung from a cellars ceiling by my wrists using cold, wet chains mid-winter because i dared to stand up to my dad forcing me to eat pig meat because "im not having a vegan faggot in this house" "easy mode". and that was only one day out of thousands. ive been through a lot.
but that just makes me believe that anybody can make it through these things, you know? cause if i could endure that then surely people can endure much less and come out much better than i have. the reason i ever ended up in a place like this was because it was at one point in time essential for my healing. it's hard to talk about the realities of trauma when most spaces are deathly afraid of people openly discussing the real consequences of enduring that kind of abuse. they're mostly "safe spaces" for people who's dads were angry at them sometimes, or who are going thru bad breakups. Not for people dealing with psychosexual perversions, cult brainwashing, periods of complete lack of empathy, folks who's triggers lead them to violate others boundaries etc.
and yet, hey! i made it! and you can too, anon. we can all make it.
