Over the course of an exceedingly stressful year, I had frequented this board as I grappled with my gender and the equally shadowy and alluring prospect of transitioning. After my ex and I broke up and my schedule freed up for a new job and more time to work on myself, I managed to extricate myself from the field of vortex-like thought processes that come with an obsession with hormonal transitioning.
Two days ago, after briefly reflecting on the need that I feel to present more androgynously, I tried on a wrinkly, virtually unworn Zara dress that I had bought during that first period of questioning my gender. While looking in the mirror at myself in my dress, it struck me that I had never fully let go of the idea of taking E, but had kinda just set it down way out on the fringes of my everyday mind.
I now find that I've resumed an almost identical line of questioning as I had 3-4 years ago, complete with the routine suspicions that it could be endocrine disrupting chemicals in my environment causing this or childhood trauma or boredom or procrastination or the revulsion I feel at the thought of aging as a man or not being able to pull off the androgynous look I want or loneliness/hyper-independence. I'm again considering if I have a hormonal profile that would conveniently be rounded out by E, and that my body craves it because it sees a viable benefit from having more of it; again researching how humans have expressed gender non-conformity in the past, the concoctions and potions they consumed to achieve that almost mythic "mind-body alignment."
Two main differences in the way I'm "conducting" my present line of questioning though are that I'm more aware of how obsessive I can be things like this and that I'm far less dysphoric about being seen as a man than I had thought.
It seems that, if anything, it would be easier to get over this bout than the first one, so I might just see if I can ride it out again. That said, I want to be honest with myself.
YOUNG GIRLS who are VULNERABLE and ONLY 24 YEARS OLD are having their luscious smooth supple breasts I want to grope, removed by trans ACTIVISTS before they could know a lover's caress. Why is it allowed? They're literal 24 year old CHILDREN. Mothers are DISTRAUGHT. Why have YOU done this?
I will rate your fagcent. I am the best most notable fagcent expert in the whole world - but I will only rate ur fagcent if you read (or sing) the following:
Got me out here in the water so deep Tell me how you're gon' be without me If you ain't here, I just can't breathe There's no air, no air
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air Can't live, can't breathe with no air That's how I feel whenever you ain't there There's no air, no air
How do you expect me? To live alone with just me 'Cause my world revolves around you It's so hard for me to breathe
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red: any family you have of your own generation - male or female- brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, or cousins, all magically get pregnant with children that ALL look like you, and you have to raise them, you can't just abandon them or send them to a home, but you get a gift so you have 10k a year per child, and each child ends up transitioning at a random point between ages 4-8 they develop severe gender dysphoria and all have to go to the local pediatric endocrinologist, who, happily, is more than willing to start them on cross sex hormones when they start puberty since they all seem so terribly dysphoric. Beyond being trans, the kids are all as happy and well adjusted as you are.
ALSO, there is an enchanted aquarium now in your home, and someone has to manually feed the fish in it everyday, auto-feeders won't work, and if you forget to feed the fish, and nobody else does it for 24 hours, you and the kids all die.
Finally, you get breast implants that look natural but are enormous and jiggle everywhere you walk.
green: you are now a foot shorter in height, but have gained 75 lbs, and are under a powerful spell that never allows you to lose weight no matter what you do. And if you have a penis, or your clit if you have that, is now 2 inches long, and permanently hard 24/7 - while causing no ill effect to you. If you penetrate someone else and orgasm from doing so - it will go soft - but only for 24 hours - then it goes back to rock hard again. Your 2 incher cannot be modified or removed without killing you dead.
So, how does one cope with the fact they will never look like the gender they identify with as a result of bad luck, worse decision making, and criminal cowardice?
There's a such a clear boymoder in my class that it hurts >Greasy long hair >Woman eyes >Only wears black and gray hoodies >So anxious about using their voice that I can barely hear them >Clear skin despite apparent lack of hygiene >Looks at me as if they know And it scares me to no end. It's like seeing yourself in the mirror, once a week, except it triggers my fight or flight Help
