>>39742570Well i was stupid. I had to rule literally everything else out. Tried living a straight male life with Gf, tried weight training, tried religion, tried SSRI + anti psychotic, and then I tried repressing with drugs, videogames, escapism and apathy.
It all just led me back to the same place. Internally, just felt like a woman. I could only be authentic with someone and experience love as a woman. It would leak out no matter how hard I tried to repress it, over and over and over.
Eventually i just accepted it's who i am and decided to love myself. I known it's maybe not a very complicated answer and maybe doesn't address whatever doubts you may have, but for me detranistioning was primarily about taking the "easy way out," because I felt i would never pass or be feminine enough. Eventually I found out your identity exists independently of what anyone else may think.