>>35189275Holy shit you poor creature
If i could do anything to help you i would. Loving trans girls are a gift to this world.
I can only hope to help by telling you this. Read, and sit quietly in peace and think. Learn what you can before you must pass on.
Read the ryder translation of the bhagavad gita. Read buddhism. Hell, try greek philosphy or camus or anything rich. Try to understand why you were created, and what it will mean to pass on. Dont die in confusion.
Mushroom spores are nearly free onlime from companies like sporeworks, pf tekking shrooms is highschooler tier. Dying without having a transcendental psychedleic experience is like dying without hearing music or seeing a forest. You simply must. Look up what paul stamets reccomends for dosing, id try 2g and work up to 5.
You can grow them in like 3 weeks if you order the spores now. Frankly, i hope you try to explore the depths of what it means to be alive. There you may find enitirely new ways of being. Evoloution is how life persists in this world and you can change if you are capable of desiring anything.
Also if your in america ill give u a hug to keep u from killing urself.
