>>35183475>I don't think I pass but people treat me as a woman in public so idk I feel like they're making fun of me. yeah it never goes awayYeah, I think I look like a straight up man to the point of mogging other men in terms of skeletal features but not presentation, but people still sometimes treat me like a girl or call me miss or lady and I swear they're just fucking with me or making fun of me. I wear men's clothes but I look uncanny from being on HRT for so long and I shave and I'm getting laser and I have hair down to my nipples so I always feel like they clock me as a tranny and they're being nice out of pity or making fun of me. I don't always "pass" as a woman though usually nobody genders me and sometimes I get called a man. It's just cracked that it never goes away. I feel like even if I spent a couple years full time with everyone actually thinking I'm a woman I'd still think that everyone sees me as a man and is being nice out of pity or mockery and I'd see myself as a mutilated crossdressing mentally ill man trying to skinwalk as a woman. There's just no release from this hell, I swear.
>>35183439Not them but
>why do you feel deluded? is it really over or are you just upset about not passing yetI don't think it's TOTALLY over but sometimes I get really upset over not really passing yet and thinking I look too much like a man to make it makes me want to detrans but the idea of being totally a man again makes me feel ill
>if estrogen makes you feel so bad why do you keep taking it? or do you like the effects but don't like the repercussions that come along with it?I love the effects but the repercussions are a bit fucked, not looking forward to wearing hot layers all summer to hide tits
>maybe try skipping it for a few weeks to see how you feel as an experimentYeah, I've tried quitting HRT or skipping doses a few times and it always made me feel horrible.
