internalized homophobia

Do people seriously think that the recent right wing wave sprung up organically? All their leaders talk like redditors, and are annoying to the point of making me wanna shove them into lockers, a lot of them also have that signature pseudointellectual redditor look, which makes me wanna shove them into a locker even more.

IQ TEST FOR elgeebeetee
What is the best potential partner for a misogynistig heterosexual male?
OPTION 1
>post op passing trans woman
OPTION 2
>pre transition non-passing trans man

its all fun and games until she whips out that 9 incher and rams it up your ass

I'm not quite if I wanna be trans but I have always really really looked up to them simply because, they live life in the way they see fit, even if others find them repulsive, even when threatened for simply existing, and I have always wanted to live like that, I know it's not good to glamorise hardship, but more so, I don't wanna live a repressed life where, yeah, Im not in any trouble and I'm making by, but I don't stand for anything, I don't express anything, I'm just a guy, and I just wanna be more

>all the benefits of a son, loyal, able to do manual labour, able to go die in war, physically strong, etc.
>all the benefits of a woman, able to bear children, etc.
For anyone who looks purely at societal values rather than aesthetic ones, FTMs win the day.
MTFs ONLY win on aesthetic values which are more subjective and individualistic.
Could probably simplify it as FTMs rule collectivist cultures (i.e. China) where MTFs dominate individualist cultures (USA in the 90s)

I was a regular diaperposter here from maybe 2019 to 2022
my goal has always been for diaper trannism to break the bubble and become a permanent stereotype of trans girls
I wanted everyone in broader society to think all trans girls they see were wearing diapers
and the reason for that is that that would be extremely humiliating and would make every trans girl very embarrassed
I have a sort of tranny diaper humiliation and embarrassment fetish, so my idea was to psyop the entire country into bullying trans girls (including myself, but mainly others) for wearing diapers and being babies
maybe I'll try it again in the future but my new job demands way too much energy and I end up uninspired
to set the record straight: I am not Lopey, Jessica or Poopy-Chan. those are all separate people I've had the chance to know a little bit, but none of them had any part in this or were aware at all

I’m 19 mtf and I wanna start diy hrt I could wait until I move out bc of senpai but I would be 22 by then should I diy now or wait? I’m in New York if that helps for info

Also will I pass ?
I had started before but my family found out and took it away

>ftm
>whole life everyone hated me for little reason
>people constantly misunderstand me
>constantly being slow to process so I just nod my head yes until I can leave the conversation and think
>this makes me look like an evil liar so people distance themselves from me
>treated as lesser or dumber for social awkwardness
Is this autism or just some version of adhd? I can't test it out in public anymore because I am isolated. I also keep attracting autistic or ADHD men.

>Be me
>5'4, black hair and green eyes
>Mexican family but feel a bit disconnected from the culture
>Start college
>Lanky brazilian guy sits next to me in class
>Keeps looking over and smiling at me
>His accent's thick but pretty easy to understand
>We both stay after lectures to work so end up spending a decent amount of time together
>He's friendly and hella smart and makes me piss myself laughing
>I can't drive, one day he takes me home
>End up listening to music on my bedroom floor and sharing a joint
>He scoots in super close to where I can smell his deodorant
>He stares me down like he's dyslexic and I'm a book with a stupidly thin font
>Damn did I annoy him or something?
>Tells me my eyes are pretty
>Wtf
>Laugh and call him a weirdo to distract from the panic
>We finish the joint and he goes home
>Next class still feel kinda weird but he acts normal so I calm down
>Keep cracking up and hanging out as usual
>He gives me a few rides home here and there but nothing happens like that first time
>The end of that semester comes and we're chilling on my floor again, this time watching movies
>Sometime into the second one he eases his arm around me
>Think it's a little weird but I'm comfortable
>Kinda relax into him
>He starts to rub my hip a little where my shirt slid up
>He's laughing and joking like normal so I brush it off even though my heart is punching my ribs
>We smoke a little more and I end up falling asleep
>Wake up with my head on his chest and arms wrapped around him while he's petting my hair
>He smiles at me and it makes me feel weird inside
>"You look way less ugly when you're asleep"
>He giggles
>I even can't think of something clever to say cuz I'm distracted by his dimples

Dear god what's happening to me