Can you really call yourself AGP if you've never gooned to the pic of shirtless Daddy Blanchard?

How do I look like picrel?

i wish i could get bred like a real girl, being a breeding bitch so that i can make them their kids. i need to be beaten, and dominated by a strong man like how they did it back in the old days when survival of the fittest mattered. i want to be so fucked hard that all my thoughts of who i am is just replaced of a primate of instinctively needed to be bred for the stronger ape.

I found out about hrt at 23 and was gaslit about my feelings and now I'm 25 and I just started taking hrt but it feels so fucking over am I doomed to become a troglodyte tranner

I'm a midshit, not particularly pretty and wouldn't pass without ffs which I can't afford, so I'm doing my best to feel comfy and sane in my particular situation. I boymode, wear cute clothes and acknowledge that there's certain female outfits I can't wear without being a public eyesore. I don't publically identify as trans, saying I'm a femboy or non-binary when confronted. I don't even think I'd ever be able to call myself a woman because of male socialisation and unfixably masculine body.

Who's samepilled here?

Things I have
>type 1 diabetes
>mental illness
Thing I don’t have
>a job
>friends
Should I just kill myself

>ftm friend sends me some tiktok of a woman jokingly choosing between gooning to futas or femboys
>say there's no way she's a cisf
>ftm friend tells me girls talk about masturbation all the time when with friends
>say I don't believe it because not even guys are willing to talk about their sexuality that openly unless they're social outcast weebs or something
>he says "they don't open up unless they think you're a safe person"

I still don't believe him about the masturbation thing but... fucking ouch. I'm fully aware I'm a hon and everything, and as a manmoder you can expect to be treated as a regular guy would. But the fact that I'm not even perceived as a safe person? That fucking hurts.

QOTT: Do you like the pooner drawings? Have you ever made one?
QOTT2: How many pooner drawings do you remember?

I want my doro back. I want to be with my doro. I want to watch my doro draw her comics. I want to hear my doro sing to me again. I want to make my doro laugh and have my doro make me laugh. Why won't my doro let me apologize and be with me again?

I've unironically tried love spells and I think I'm at the end of my rope because I don't think there's a way, but there's got to be some way. I can't keep living without her. I keep hoping I'll get mail from her, or an email, or added on Discord by her.

How many of you have this origin story?