>>39822791New thread because last was crowded
Taking your advice I talked to my brother, he brought us some burgers and I asked to eat with him. We just sat in silence for a while before I asked him if he was okay. That really did something because he looked at me and asked if I hated it.
I told him I didn’t and that he wasn’t the one who hurt me, he told me not to blame myself because he took advantage of his little sister and it was his responsibility to say no. In general the conversation was a sappy back and forth of emotions and expression. He came close and hugged me and I thought things were going well.
Until he asked “Are we dating now?” I told him I didn’t know what he was talking about but he reiterated “Well, since we did that, I thought you might wanna be in a relationship” and from there shit hit the fan.
He starts saying all this stuff about how he loves me, and wants to protect me no matter what that means for us. I told him I’m not sure about that kind of arrangement and pushed him back a little, and he looked upset. I told him I love him but I’m not sure if it’s like that.
He told me I said I loved him and wanted that, and that he was “going to protect me from now on”. He ended up asking me if I wanted to be with him and if I was happy with the sex. I really fucking tried to dodge it, let him down slow and say no, but he just kept pushing me for why.
I caved and said I did, but I didn’t know if it was okay. I honestly don’t want to be dating, I just wanted my brother to not hate or leave me. That was the worst mistake, as soon as I told him he grabbed my head and kissed me.
He went on to push me down slowly, and he took off his shirt saying he “wanted to do it properly this time”, I felt disgusted but just went with it. He didn’t even ask if I wanted to, he just started touching me, after he finished the “foreplay” he took my shirt off, undid my bra, and fucked my chest.
You get the rest; we did it again and I want to kill myself.