>>4862616>>4863945This will sound hard to believe, and I don't know why I feel like writing this at all, but I actually have no sexual interest whatsoever in what I requested. It's emotionally repugnant to me, but that's why I need to see it, if it does exist - I feel this need to inure myself to it. I hate that it probably exists but I can't hide from it; I need to actively seek it out and look at it fully. This is so that my concept of the character will become immovable and secure from being dislodged at all in the future, should I happen to accidentally see one of the travesties I am presently seeking out.
I've already done this with guro, so that part's covered. But I need to see the very worst, most reprehensible Asuka R34 which exists, and to my mind a scenario with the MPEs is the culmination of that.
