>>33881530>>33881530My situation is unique in that nobody really sees me, so nobody knew. When I am in that state I am always eating a deficit, so I maintained it for about a year straight, but both times I rebounded and ended up putting the weight I lost back on over a couple of months.
As for the why, well I wanted to be thin. I've oscillated between being fat and thin for most of my life. I get fat, then one day a switch flips, and I decide to lose weight. Typically I start out "healthy", eating in a slight deficit and eating healthy foods. Over time I get more and more restrictive in my deficit and the foods I am consuming. Several years ago I only ate sweet potatoes for a few months, then after I ended up unwell, I expanded to sweet potatoes + beans. There was a time when I only ate carrots, peas, beans, and prunes for several months.
There was a time that I avoided sodium entirely and compulsively drank water and ended up with chronic hyponatremia (low serum sodium) for a few months. There was a time when I was having reactive hypoglycemia on a daily basis because I was doing one meal a day and I'd eat a very carb heavy meal, which would spike my blood sugar, and then I'd end up with low blood sugar a few hours later. I'd just ride out the hypos because it wasn't time to eat. I do dumb shit when I am in that mode. I get obsessed. It consumes my being.
As I've got older it has got harder to restrict. Nowadays I get into restrict binge cycles. In the past it was just always restriction, no deviations. I used to be good at it.
