>>32544133Not participating to the survey, but I guess this might be the right thread to ask/vent. Sorry if it's not
I have a cum fetish, but only when I'm horny.
Like, when I'm really horny and in the moment I sometimes think about cumming in my gf's mouth and making out with her, or filling up her pussy and then eating her out, or cumming on her tits and licking it off her nipples.
The fact is, when I do cum, the thought of doing it is not hot anymore. A few times I've pushed myself to do it, and it was actually awesome. I don't really like the taste per se, but knowing that I'm tasting myself on her is awesome. Makes me feel like we're really together. It also helps that she has a cum fetish as well, so it turns her on a whole lot. I also enjoy it purely for the feeling of "I'm really not supposed to do that", which is probably the same feeling that makes me chicken out, at least in part. I've eaten my load a couple times after jerking off, just to feel like I was doing something really "bad". I guess it's humiliating and makes me feel "lower" for a bit and like I'm embracing it, which I enjoy. I enjoy feeling like that especially when I'm already feeling a bit down, for some reason.
Today I wanted to try pouring some of my cum in my ass (I also enjoy ass play, and lately I've been really in the mood for it). I got to the point of jerking off in a shot glass and - I kid you not - preparing a funnel. As soon as I came in the glass though, it was gone. I looked at my load, and it wasn't sexy anymore. I didn't even feel like tasting it.
I have no idea of what I should do with this fetish. I really can't even tell if I genuinely want it or not. What the fuck.
Does anyone else experience something similar?
