>>29137523I have a few fucked up ones. My main one that I had the longest and is the most pronounced is for monsters and deformed people. Teratophilia. It covers a wide range of looks. Some people I'm attracted to are real side show freaks. I love lobster hands for example, cleft palates, tumors. But a lot are just drawn/created/tv monsters. People think of furries but I was never that into fur it's self so anthro on its own was never big for me. Occasionally I will see some I like but they fall more on being reptilian, bug like, fish like, plant like, rather than fur it's self. Robots, aliens, all kinds of non humans. Just non humans period, them having equal to or higher intelligence is a key element; thus why an an animal doesn't do it so I'm not into beastiality.
Honestly the level of shame I've had towards this fetish has been pretty big but now I've accepted it and the fact that it's never going away and I can't hypnotize myself out of it.
The other ones are more run of the mill. I do have bad penis envy and rape fantasies going either way where I rape (cis or trans men) or get raped (by cis men) with misogyny included where he taunts me about my penis envy.
Lastly it's just gfd & shy boys.
I've had periods in my life for only like a month or so I'd do it to a totally new fetish. Like vore & transformation for example, but both times it fed into the teratophilia somehow. Always transformation into a monster or eaten by a monster.
I've done a lot of play where I was the Dom. I found it incredibly unsatisfying in the end even though I still have a lot of fantasies where I'm the Dom. I'm trying to switch and play as a sub but I haven't learned to drop all the Dom tendencies I picked up so I find other Doms hard to interact with. I'm still planning on pretty much finding what I want even if I have to be forceful about getting the guy to Dom me. I haven't figured out how to do that yet.
I'm not gonna drop my contact. Didn't proof read.
