Not because you feel bad for them or because you think they are not enjoying themselves. But because you long for them and you’ll never be with them. You’ll never share eye contact and laughs. You’ll never caress their body. You’ll never be inside them. You’ll never fill them with ecstatic joy and pleasure.

For me, it’s Caroline Pierce. The fact that she’s mostly from the 90’s-early 2000s adds to the longing, because the videos are from an era where I was too young to even be sexually aware. When watching her old videos, I feel a deep longing and nostalgia for a time and place I’ll never be.