>>39966568You want to be loved, not to be smaller, you want to not be thought of as lesser nor have such reinforced feelings.
I do expect most of those feelings to be internalized dooming, but, it just boils down to associating being small with being loved.
You will be loved in time, someone will fall in love with you, and, being loved is no "small woman" thing. I bet some man will treat you like a toy and play up onto your insecurities in time, but no proper human will do such and play your buttons to make you dependant.
>>39966212I get what you mean, for me, due to my personality, being tall comes hand in hand with who i am, however to someone like you it must be grueling, to be looked at and expected to be someone you are not, specially how they masculinize you. I imagine the latter would have a massive toll on my mind if it were to happen.
>>39966514For me feeling like this is a very recent development, it took me over a decade to get here and feel like so, i used to feel like a parody of myself and a parody of a woman, being fake and manufactured by looking high fem while i didn't enjoy such
