I think I got along relatively well at first with girls in like preschool and around that age but it was kind of segregated and weird there already. I was friends with some neighbouring kids that were boys and girls at that age which I kept as long as I lived there. I kind of stood out in school since I was really tall in the beginning of my youth, tallest boy in class for a couple of years, got bullied by like almost everyone of the boys for whatever reason, didn't really feel included with girls, some were mean, some seemed like I could get along with them but I felt like I'd be better off just staying alone at school. One boy made friends with me eventually and we got along until we had to part. I think I stopped standing out by middle school since by then my growth got stunted I guess and I was slightly shorter than the typical boy with growth ending at 13 years old. I always got along with women fine except two times when I was bullied they took the side of some false accusers when I was bullied in a way that really stood out. My mother yelled at me very often, maybe most days as a kid, she wasn't really violent except to keep me in place, she'd threaten me if I spoke up for myself too strongly no matter how polite I was. Didn't matter if I tried to talk with her, or kept quiet, if I cried, or got angry, if I was in a a good mood, or begging her to kill me, or let me kill myself. She and to a lesser extent other women always felt very comfortable commenting on my appearance in ways that made me really uncomfortable and telling me what I should do with it or demanding things. I've also been sexually assaulted a couple of times by women... Besides that and online arguments I've gotten along with women I guess. I kind of feel the need to be cautious around them in different ways than I have to be with men though. I really just keep to myself irl nowadays, besides some social gatherings and a hobby that's filled with like mostly retired old couples.
