Being a man who not only loves cute things but would like to be cute themselves really sucks

When I was a kid it was easier, I did get made fun of for being weird for having long hair as a boy, liking girls toys, cartoons, etc (as they are often more cute oriented), and liked wearing pink and stuff

If it was a thing back then I no doubt would've been a femboy type, but now, being a fully grown man who likes cute things is extremely embarrassing because I feel that if I were to express myself I would no doubt be labeled a creep, perv, man child or many other negative things, perhaps even seen as a sexual predator and is much more dangerous than when I was a kid

I do have body dysphoria but not gender dysphoria, I wish I was cuter and less masculine but I still feel comfortable with being a man

I hate that I can't really express myself, it feels like I'm just living a lie.