>get a job. boymode cause i dont pass
>get lots of dysphoria
>put up with it till i cant
>eventually quit or stop showing up
>pushes me further to depression and disassociation
>have become a recluse and avoid most everything now
>even avoid people i call my friends too cause i hate being perceived as this being and being a boring sad sack
>slowly wasting all of my youth doing this cycle over and over
>going crazy cause of lack of real relationships, all i do is browse 4chan and make art and stuff
>miss my friends but too ashamed to text anyone
>no real prospects or skills
>no motivation to change these things
like ive failed right? i feel theres no hope for someone like me mostly cause ive given into it all. idk how to cope with life. never really have. im confused, scared and lost. very tired most days for no reason. very lonely. i will say if we ever talked for an extended period, i miss ya. and im sorry i didnt text back. im a coward and will prolly die alone