I had someone I loved and cared about so dearly, and she killed herself a little over a year ago, her name was Mia, I was just being introduced to little space and age regression and I wasn’t sure what I wanted, she came into my life and she was supposed to be my mama but drugs and abuse from her father pushed her further and further away, then she killed herself, and ever since then I’ve been a fucking mess, I’ve been trying to go to therapy and support groups but how crazy is that, diaper tranny has a mama, and mama blows her fucking brains out, and now I’m an alcoholic, so much for being innocent and sweet, you know what’s even better about all of this, what’s even more grotesquely pathetic, I’m dying, and I’m throwing everything away, the people I care about and the people that care about me, just letting my health go down the drain all because I hope when I die I’ll get to see Mia again, I’ve thrown up blood over and over, had organ failure, nearly died in my sleep, and now I’m just letting my body decay, because the truth is I want to see her again so badly that I’m willing to ruin my chance of a happy life just to see her again, I know I should focus on my health, I know I should find a place that can help me, I know I should try and be social, but I isolate myself because I don’t wanna bother people with how fucked in the head and ruined I am