How do yall jerk off without feeling repulsed of ur dick, cuz stg for me everytime it goes like:

>erection
>reach into pants, but never take them off
>direct dick contact's revolting asf, so i instead jerk it in underwear

but it's NOT the mp8 shake it up technique, aka "the normal way", im laying down sideways & im not getting up for this shit, so instead:

>horizontally twist back & forth a lil
>no firm grip, press on dick a bit like a massive button i cant stop pressing
>imagine playing a flute, but u gotta rotate it a bunch of times mid-performance
>finish, then go back to what i was doing. cleanup's too embarrassing internally

Ive only recently realized this stems from bottom dysphoria, that i actually HAVE bottom dysphoria (despite being trans for over 4 years atp), i feel dumb as hell not catching on sooner