>be me
>trans at 30, total lateshit, hopelessly masculine, but need to do it or I'll rope
>obviously, see self as total ogre
>whatevs, it's the life I have
>about a year in, start feeling very social
>convert-introvert-to-extrovert.yaml
>I guess not making as a dude makes me social
>start making friends
>more friends than I've had in the rest of my life combined
>they're all super nice and awesome
>most of them insist I'm cute and passing, so, yaknow, affirmation overload
>one friend confesses love to me
>she's the sweetest thing I know, but we can't - we stay close friends
>several months later, one of my closest friends admits she has a crush on me, but we never say much beyond that. More on that later
>a few months after that, someone I kinda hate the guts of and isn't even part of my friend group admits that she has a crush on me and can't stop thinking about me - wtf???
>not long after, a third friend tells me she loves me - much like the first, there's reasons it can't be a thing
>a few weeks after that, friend #2 from above comes back and admits she's fallen hard for m

Goddamn, apparently I'm either hot or just that good of a person or both? I don't feel hot so maybe it's my winning personality??? I don't get it... I have girls practically falling over themselves for me after decades of being pretty much a nobody! Hell, I'm pretty sure one of my guy friends likes me (he's backpedaled on some sus things) but won't say anything because I'm a pretty staunch lesbo.
It's not... a bad thing... I'm not upset... just... what??? I'm barely even doing anything - I just talk to people, be nice, remain considerate of their emotions... yaknow, basic ass shit. I'm so so lost.
And the worst part is, fuck me, 2 of these women are easily some of the hottest people I've ever personally known. T.T And they're throwing themselves at me but I just can't because of the way life is right now.