> be me
> ugly 18yr old 5'4 mtf
> hhkv
> sort of a basement dweller, but it's more like the bottom floor of a house.
> live in backwater town in far western kentucky that still has kkk members creeping around
> Haven't talked to anyone in 4 months. I only speak to two of my friends now very infrequently because I don't want them to look at my ugly face and hear me retarded voice
> Haven't felt the touch of another human in years. Not even from family as I don't trust them in any capacity.
> ever since starting Hrt 6 months ago, the yearning for intimacy has skyrocketed to the point its painful.
> constant fantasies of being in a happy relationship with a loving partner that will cuddle with me and whisper sweet nothings into my ear. As well as fantasies of being dominated by somebody stronger than me that genuinely cares for me.
Enough greentext. I'm lonely anons. I want to know what it feels like to be close with someone. I desperately desire to touch another person. I want to know what it's like to be loved for once. It hurt anons it's like a pit in my gut that doesn't go away. Wtf do I do about this as a moidly fag. Broke ad shit nowhere to go nobody to talk to. Too ashamed of myself to be seen in public. I'm tired of rotting all day tired of being alone. I'm tired of hiding. I'm just tired. I wish I could sleep until my time on this rock was up.

Sorry for blogposting. I'm high and bored and just wanted to post something.

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