after 2 years of being a shy girlmoder who'd dress in baggy clothes and only black, I've noticed some changes over the last three months

>started straightening my hair
>wearing makeup every day
>more comfortable showing skin
>getting my manicure professionally done
>started identifying with women more

I don't really know why these changes have started coming on, I've always wanted to be more feminine but it's like I silently snapped, in addition to above I developed a desire to dye my hair blonde and started tanning my skin

I'm kinda scared of where this will lead to desu, yesterday I accidentally got my nails painted red-pink, like the girliest possible combination of both, I adore them, but I have to wonder, was this secretly on purpose?