> be me boymoder 15months HRT
> 21
> At a gathering with friends eating diner
> I'm out to two of them they are both talking to me
> They start making subtle references to the fact that I still boymoder but not saying it out loud so I'm not outed
> "Why haven't you done it yet anon huh ;)"
> "Yeah come on just do it it'll be fine, you just don't have any self confidence!"
> Like I can just *become* self confident at will
> I answered best as I could
> "It's scary haha! T-T"
> "Anon I'm going to take you to the gym to get that confidence up lol"
> "What if we meet (insert old friends
name that goes to the gym) well hopefully he wouldn't recognise me hah, I've changed a bit at least!"
> "Nah anon you haven't, your face is the exact same as before, basically you just got long hair"

I genuinely don't understand cis people, I'm supposed to be out and proud yet they think I still look like an ugly man. Now I want to rope bad. I'm working towards FFS I guess...