its fifth month of hrt soon and also my vial will end soon too. i hate my life with a passion and it only got worse after hrt. my parents found out and i now i have to take antidepressants under their control and its got harder to get vials(the one i use now is from a friend of mine). i still look like a weird man. i live in russia so i cant even change my name, all i do is worthless anyway. is repping that bad? im hsts so i guess a valid option for me is just being aap faggot for the rest of my life.