I screwed up, I think I stupidly confused my race dysphoria for gender dysphoria. I hate that I had to take estrogen to realize this but I think all my issues are just bc im hapa and hate my Asian features. I’ve come to realize that I hate my big jaw, narrow hips, thick skin, and huge calves not bc they’re male traits but bc they’re Asian traits. I think if I were white I might still be a little agp but I’d never develop the self hate and bdd that ultimately led me to want to transition. Idk what to do now, I don’t want to be a woman anymore but i still can’t stand my own body