>>39484573>QOTTYes, all the time, always
>>3948577630 year old femrep here. I’ve known for sure I preferred being thought of as a boy since I was in kindergarten, but around 10 after reading up on hormones I decided to rep so hard that I didn’t “know” know yet. (Lowkey thought I’d magically turn into a normal boy like all my friends once I hit puberty)
I “knew” knew at 14, with the correct terminology and all, but spent a long time trying to disprove or discredit my feeling of knowing until I ended up in a psych ward at 18 with severe stress and I had to beg a psychiatrist not to give me a formal diagnosis or out me to my parents.
that puts me at 12 years of repping, minimum.
I dont hate women, or men, or trans people as groups, I only really hate myself for being such a failure. I cope by andromoding too, but I feel like I’m getting too old and ugly to pull it off. I can’t hag mode though, because it makes me too dissociated to function or leave the house. So now I’m stuck.
