Hi, I'm writing this as a cry for help. Please, I need your help. I'm almost 18, and since I entered this stage, something has been going through my head a lot. I'm having a lot of thoughts like "if I were a man, I would..." or "if I were a man, I would be sexually fine." I'm a virgin, and sometimes, when I watch heterosexual porn, things that used to turn me on with gay couples or a man and a cuntboy, don't turn me on anymore if there's a woman and a man. It makes me uncomfortable. In my childhood, I also had a tendency toward things that were "boyish," but not as much. Is this sexual discomfort I feel due to guilt because I don't feel good about my gender?