>>39339684I dont know what experience the other guy is talking about but I certainly have had opportunities Ive completely fumbled.
I just had no motivation to talk to women for so long. I killed it or I repressed the hell out of my sexuality for various personal reasons stemming from societal and religious reasons. I remember praying to god at one point (shit was so cringe as I think about it).
It doesn't help I think I'm a slow learner and was socially impaired due to language barriers and just being shy and my parents ofc coddling me all the time. And like I said I think I heavily repressed and I know now I used to not have an internal monologue. It was so difficult learning to develop an internal voice.
Then for some reason a handful of woman at places I have worked have tried flirting but im doa. Some chick apparently got the dick so good (apparently she was a squirter) and her boyfriend ghosted her by leaving the state. I suspect it was he knocked her up. She was very distraught and "miscarried".
Anyways she literally wants it so bad and she thinks were an item. She invites me over and she has the hangover on (this is a while back) and shes pulling my shirt up and giving me hickies and im a wet blanket trying to watch the movie. Nothing happens!
She did try though Ill give her that. What happens after is really embarrassing for me. The ex returns and I have a hunch why hes showing up at were he quit and I was still working at. I dont even know how it happened but I got really upset and of course Im really spineless so Im basically letting it happen. I text her and am trying to figure out what to do. At one point she says if I want her back I have to fight the ex.
I was so dumb. And Ill it does is make my blood boil. And its happened so much I know. I take a breather and compose myself knowing I cant regret what happened because I need to be sure I wont regret right now.
