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>romantic and genuine-sexual attraction 90% to women (have meta attraction so i can fuck men and enjoy it in the moment then regret it massively -- but that's par for the course)
>get worried talking to cis women in case i come off as creepy by accident (even in completely neutral/professional contexts)
>got "asked out" as a joke more times than i can think of in school for being sensitive and lonely. always ran away and got mocked for it
>when women compliment me i completely clam up because returning the compliment would be to drag my greasy slimy male gaze over her
>if i ever brush a woman's hand or something i apologise profusely and retreat into myself the rest of the interaction
>a lesbian hit on me once and i started crying when i stepped off the train
>sometimes i read lesbian erotica then get really sad because i'm a male getting aroused at this creepy voyeurism into a beautiful pure thing
>the closest i allow myself to get to lesbianism is getting REALLY into suselle. i keep it pg though because of the aforementioned
>if i ever managed to accidentally deceive a real woman into being interested in me again (like the train lesbian) i'd tell her i'm a tranny right away so she can leave
>plan on having a husband and just letting this part of me live on not doing anything
>friends call me insane lesbian
>get worried talking to cis women in case i come off as creepy by accident (even in completely neutral/professional contexts)
>got "asked out" as a joke more times than i can think of in school for being sensitive and lonely. always ran away and got mocked for it
>when women compliment me i completely clam up because returning the compliment would be to drag my greasy slimy male gaze over her
>if i ever brush a woman's hand or something i apologise profusely and retreat into myself the rest of the interaction
>a lesbian hit on me once and i started crying when i stepped off the train
>sometimes i read lesbian erotica then get really sad because i'm a male getting aroused at this creepy voyeurism into a beautiful pure thing
>the closest i allow myself to get to lesbianism is getting REALLY into suselle. i keep it pg though because of the aforementioned
>if i ever managed to accidentally deceive a real woman into being interested in me again (like the train lesbian) i'd tell her i'm a tranny right away so she can leave
>plan on having a husband and just letting this part of me live on not doing anything
>friends call me insane lesbian
