>>32769170>>32769284Thread is a bit old, but here's essentially the situation with Finnster:
Finnster is a straight cis crossdresser who got too good at what he does and is essentially crashing and burning, internally, mentally, etc.. Due to a combination of two things:
Number 1. His guilt for being seen as a "poggers trans icon". He doesn't see himself as an icon or an ally or anything like that; he sees himself as a conman and a fraud cheating people. Finnster started out as a minecraft streamer and during/breifly before that period twas that he was a normaly, mildly edgy, gamer boy. His feelings towards his past and his current self haven't had a lot of time to naturalize, so he's understandable depressed from a lot of internal juxtapose.
Number 2. Finnster didn't originally have body dysmorphia, but he's giving himself body dysmorphia due to the unique stresses, anxiety, and depression, being created by what started out as a hobby and now is a job. Finnster is getting older and he's slowly crawling towards twink/gay death. Finnster is nearing 25 and his body is starting to slow down, his metabolism isn't metabolizing like it used to, he's had to take his health more seriously, and has to spend even more time, money, and effort making himself "presentable". This is creating an immense amount of anxiety inside him because it's the combination of "I'm not that good looking" multiplied by "I have to be good looking or there goes my meal ticket" and "how much time do I have left".
Finnster is basically stuck in a game of, "I've monetized a false identity and lifestyle that's brought me anything I could ask for, but I'm miserable and the stress is catching up with me."
