>>2176713>lemme guess, you're the same mentally ill retard that fucks animals and spouts off about how>>all porn addicts do thisno, I'm just fucked up from traumatic childhood experiences and desensitized myself to extreme porn since i was about 11.
>please kysnot even joking, since seeing that video i mentioned, and a few others (though those didn't have any killing in them) I've been very concerned and actually thought about killing myself a whole lot, moreso than usual.
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>desu I'm more excited and hopeful than concerned thoughwas written while i was very horny. once i cum i get hit with insane post nut regret and shame and hate myself for actually enjoying and getting off to what I'm 99.9% sure was a real murder and necrophilia. the whole desensitization stuff didn't bother me too much for most of my adolescence but over the last 2 or 3 years (I'm 26 now) I've become more fucked up than i thought I'd get when i was a young teen. before, i just considered all of it extreme kinks but nothing serious. the past few years I've crossed certain lines i didn't think I'd cross and I'm genuinely worried where this is all headed. i honestly don't know what type of person i will be when I'm 40. i get insanely impulsive and can't hold myself back from doing things I told myself i would never do again when I'm horny, and when I'm horny i have unbelievably violent and horrible desires. I'm actually very afraid that some day in the future, i might be idk, driving in my car, horny af, happening to be somewhere with no people around and coincidentally come across a woman i find attractive. if I continue to keep pushing my limits, who knows, maybe i won't be able to control myself and try to assault and/or abduct her. i know this might read as edgy baiting but I'm scared I'm going to end up killing someone one day. my initial post read as boisterous but that was pre nut thinking. I'm post nut now and can think about this more lucidly. many people had a few moments
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