I am a 32-year-old married woman and I am a nymphomaniac, I have been through all kinds of relationships and experienced everything looking for pleasure... lately I discovered that I am addicted to violent porn, with abuse, simulated rape and more than anything I think that I am lolicon. I'm an otaku and I already know...the otaku pedobear stereotype. But I would never bring this to reality or harm any human being... But I was repeatedly abused and raped by my grandfather and later by several older men. The popular belief is that rape is a terrible thing... but from a very young age I had the most intense orgasms of my life as a result of forced sex or semi-violent rape. I don't feel bad or guilty, I just masturbate watching the most disgusting and twisted thing I can find. More than anything child abuse, it excites me to even remember what happened to me. I even had involuntary squirts watching little girl rapes. What excites me the most is the curiosity that now my husband discovered it and we both masturbate fantasizing about those virgin and innocent vaginitas. Then I ask him to anally rape me and use me as his Loli. (I am very small and flat). I'm sick...