ik ik i womt really do it JUST KIDDING STAR blah blah

but seriously i need a place to vent. im going through a breakup, im lonely, i think i drive every person away by being too clingy.

everyone i meet that i sort of imagine a future with is either way too sexual, has a partner/poly, or just doesnt like me.

i just wanted some people to like watch movies with and hold hands and no one actually wants to do that with me, at least no other trans girls. maybe some moids but i rlly dont like testosterone it is too horny for me.

anyways im giving it a little longer. maybe someone actually wants to be with me and cuddle and stuff without sex. but seriously im at my limit. usa government sucks, work environment sucks, relationships suck.

theres no point continuing when i can just die and go somewhere other than here. and no idc ab "living as a protest" or wtv the jannies dont care if im dead or alive