> be me, 21 year old trans girl, severely autistic, have PTSD and infantile regression, struggle with bedwetting due to PTSD
> about 2 years ago, still living in my parents house, dad is abusive, mom is getting better
> incontinence disappears for a bit but suddenly comes back as I start to experience symptoms of PTSD
> have severe nightmares/flashbacks, bedwetting happens enough for me to consider diapers
> somehow get talked into joining an ABDL group chat, they encourage me to buy diapers and a pacifier, after a ton of peer pressure do it
> both items arrive, get really nervous but try them, it feels weird, I kinda don’t like it
> try again a few days later, pee in the diaper for the first time
> feels okay
> start buying diapers more regularly for my bed wetting
> mother eventually finds out, ends up being supportive, offers to start buying diapers for me so I don’t have accidents, she seems genuinely concerned
> continue to figure out myself with all the little space stuff, confusing and depressing time
> start wearing diapers every single night
> in the mornings my mother enters my room specifically while I’m still in a wet diaper
> says shit like “aww, my little diaper baby girl” or “do you need me to change you sweetheart” or “did you have an accident baby girl” or “little diaper baby girl” mostly a weird combo of all those
> become extremely uncomfortable and embarrassed, she continues to insist on things like wanting to hold me like a toddler, baby talking me, etc.
> get so uncomfortable I tell her to knock it off, she does but remains supportive
> present day
> talk to therapist about it, therapist says she was probably reliving the time that I was an infant and wasn’t trying to be weird or sexual or anything, just naturally being maternal and wanting to take care of me because she could somehow subconsciously tell I was regressing
> wanna kms cause that’s literally all I want now, I wish this was larp
