>>39443799well I'd address this to my boyfriend but he stopped really being that the first time he cheated on me right
i dont know i hope you get to feel it someday too
obviously there's no way for me to survive on my own i cant realistically pay rent here working minimum wage and im not gonna be able to live anywhere else where i wont get my hrt covered and i dont have a car.
just surviving was enough and i was trying. i dont want to disappoint my dad but he's gone and you've clearly recently started cheating on me again and there isn't really anyone left who wants me alive, that includes myself
it was enough for me to endure your abuse and survive but i can see the writing on the walls and i know you wont support me much longer
if you do end up finding and reading this dont freak out thinking im killing myself right now im waiting til dads birthday next weekend because i wanted to do something for him
i really loved you, enough to look past what you did the first time, and the second time, and the third time. enough to tough it out when you started to become abusive around this time last year
but i can't keep loving where im not loved and i dont really want to live in a world where nobody loves me
im not gonna wait to become homeless or detransition out of poverty so im going next weekend
all i learned with my life is that people with good hearts get chewed up by this world and die young, like my dad, like me
i hope i haunt you like my dad haunts me
i hope your family dies too and i hope you can experience what its really like to have nothing and nobody but ghosts after im gone
I dont want to be here anymore i dont want to hurt anymore i want to see dad
im spilling my guts on this retarded circlejerk board because i have noone and im too afraid to say it to you because im sick of being screamed at im sick of you throwing things i dont want to get hurt any more i just want this to end
you're probably here looking for another kid to hook up with anyways
