>>39443799Oh look this thread is up, maybe I'll actually post my confession this time:
I am a whale tipper for transwomen on chaturbate.
Over the last few years I have tipped probably around $200K to various transwomen. Literally today I tipped around $500. Not exactly money I had lying around either. I currently have at least $15K in credit card debt as a result of this addiction.
At this point I don't even know why I still do this other than the obvious (loneliness). I recognize that it hasn't been enough to satisfy my need for connection for a long time. I should put myself out there IRL but obviously, I don't. I go to work, I go out drinking, I never tell anyone what's truly on my mind because it's pretty much only camgirls at this point. I've developed friendships with them, had falling outs, had entire relationships that I have never told a single soul about.
Back when I was just a porn addict, the shame wasn't even all that bad. Did I worry about leaving the wrong tab open? Sure. Did I spend a little bit too much time on it? Arguably. Did I get into some kinky shit I never expected to? Absolutely. But at the end of the day I could always just turn off the computer, go to sleep, and wake up the next day without a single thought on my mind that had to do with porn.
I miss those days.