>be cis bi amab >6'3, very dominant personality, almost textbook bear physique >really want to get bottomed >go on grindr and find someone with 8 inches and wants to use it >get to hooking up, i clean out and get ready >he sees me and gets extremely subby, i still wanna nut so I give him the 4 inches >few days later I look around of tinder >find a cis girl who says she's dominant want wants to peg a man until he cries >we start hitting it off,hook up, she sees me and gets extremely subby, says I'm the first person to ever make her feel that way >getting very frustrated >go on fetlife and find a transfemme and transmasc couple who are professional dominatrixes and do escort work >explain to them my situation, we get to talking and negotiations >they accept,pay them $200 for 2 hours,they show up to my apartment >they both look at me,then to each other,I already know where this is going >I top them both >they refund me and apologize profusely >now have a harem of bottoms
This has to be god punishing me for being a faggot, it can't be that hard to find a top
this morning I realized I actually am a pervert, as they claim all trannies are. I was watching a PC build video, and I got really horny because of it. I went to my closet and got my old PC parts out and started touching myself to them. What do I do to stop being a pervert? I really dont know how to redeem myself..
>you're shorter than 5'8" >not muscular >dont like hurting me >not willing to slap my ass in public >not willing to manhandle me in public >dont like growing body hair >dont like growing beard >and ur fat >okay you can be a bear just not weak fat
Not consciously but when when someone clocks me but mistakes me for a pooner i'm like "lmao what a fucking retard how could i possibly be a pooner at 6'2" even though i pass most of the time. Like being seen as a 6'2 cis woman is no issue for me but i find it hilarious when someone thinks i'm a 6'2 trans guy for some reason.
i wish a real man would remind me that im a woman by forcing me to detransition and raping me :( all ill ever be is a woman who shoots up roids because she thinks it will make her resemble a male (it wont), i deserve to be punished for being female and pretending to be male. im not even malebrained, im just severely gender dysphoric. im a weak foid, so an actual man could do whatever he wanted to me and i wouldnt be able to fight back
i wouldnt like any of this, i would be miserable and hate it, which is why i want it. testosterone makes me happy, dressing as male makes me happy, having autonomy makes me happy, i dont deserve any of that.
sometimes ill walk around my town after dark hoping i get kidnapped raped and murdered, but that hasnt happened yet. i guess i look male now, which makes me happy, so its bad. yesterday i looked at myself naked in the mirror for the first time in months and i realized i look more male that female now, at least my fat distribution does, ignoring the chest tumors (i mean the breasts, used for breast feeding, my only purpose in life :D)
instead of what i deserve i have a bf who loves me and wouldnt do any of this, its wrong. i deserve another horrible bf who abuses me, im not supposed to be happy in a relationship. it feels weird, im supposed to be miserable. and a different pooner whos actually male deserves him, not me
I love trannies because the tranny at work lets me feel up her pantyhosed thighs and legs. She will even rest her feet on my crotch while I work. I would go further but she has a girlfriend so I let her decide how far she wants us to go. I did somewhat lose control once and held her face first against a wall while I grinded against her ass though.
Any way, just wanted to say that you have good tranny ambassadors out there.
