>>1248047You deserve to die.
Any who, talk to your friends. If you're not out, don't just come out and say suck my dick. Play in mud and get drunk. Then be like "you're my bro, lets just shower together." Or, just find a dude that you like online or something. Have fun. Oh, take the chance to sell yourself jerking off or sucking a buddy online if you can. You can make a couple pennies.